Secret Garden

I search for instructions on how to garden
The pictures are filled with manicured lawns
Soft grass in meadows bursting with flowers
in place of my dried brambles and thorns

Dandelion seeds longing to scatter
Sheltered by the willow tree
A sea of white blinds my kaleidoscope colors
Hedges keep the entrance a secret from me

Carnivorous plants look like gardenias
You dig up Your weeds while mine bury deeper
Your oak stands a millennium
i envy its keeper
my roots remain shallow
The wind rips me up
Allow land to lay fallow
Refilling my cup

your beauty is one I’m told is sublime
Why should I mind?
I cannot transplant from your garden to mine
I realize I’ve forgotten to cry