Rosebuds

In opening myself up to rejection
I’m more terrified of a yes.
The gallop in my heart belies danger
I can’t put sweet words to the test.

It’s easy when you’re being kind.
Scrambling for one piece of my mind.
Chilled bodies softly intertwine.
Gripped by an urge to make you mine.

This isn’t possible.
Cronos leaves me empty.
I’m far too responsible.
Ethics become my enemy.

Without you in my arms
breathing is once again hard.
But I’m resolved to starve
& carry on the piece that you carved.

You dared to call me bunny,
I bit back a breathless honey,
I’m not strong enough to face how easily you’d devour me.

Nothing can happen,
but I’ll linger awhile,
basking in the undiluted joy of your smile.