Drafts

I'm on a quest to find everything that has ever felt good, figuring out why it felt good, and integrating it into my life

inkycapnip

19 Aug 2025

If I was a dragon I'd live in a cave on a lumpy pile of gold.
Every treasure is drenched in blood and it's hard to clean with such big, sharp claws.
Too long, doesn't fit.
Clearly, I must learn once again—to transform.

I temper my rage,
I breathe more than fire.
I learn to be gentle when facing desire.

I've gathered a hoard,
I've no need for much more.
There is plenty right here I can learn to adore.

If I was a dragon I'd turn a dank cave to a bright and cozy home.
I would sleep on a jumpable, soft, fuzzy bed.
I would sing so much more than I roar.

Hi.

I don't know if you're real. I don't know if you're out there. I don't know if I should be directing this letter at myself. I don't know if these words could ever be about anyone else. There&

Who are you?

Are you the girl who tenderly whispered that you would like to live by my side? Are you the maniac who tossed your head back laughing as sadness filled my eyes? Are you the woman whose radiant locks shone golden in the setting sun? Are you the boy who smiled

How it started vs How it's going

The start: 2025/04/22 Freedom Safety Connection Everything else may be transient I'm still in a phase of development Uncomfortable out of my element That probably means it's working Pleasure need not stay lurking The now: 2025/09/16

I used to feel ashamed of this picture.

People would look at me with pity, but their kindness was nowhere to be seen. I turned from empty platitudes, seeking shelter through a screen. I stopped getting cat called at least, those same men now recoiled. I stopped hearing about how my beauty made me obnoxiously spoiled. Feeling unworthy

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Hi.

Who are you?

How it started vs How it's going

I used to feel ashamed of this picture.